You were 14 when it happened, you got your first crush. Every time she talked to you, you blushed and your heart beat so fast you couldn't count. You started to care about how you looked, you started to care how you dressed and you started to care about how you smell. School was no longer about learning, it was all about her. You couldn't wait to go to school so you could met her, to see her smile, to hear her voice and laugh. You did whatever necessary to get her attention even if you had to make a fool out of yourself. Every smile from her was more precious than anything money can buy
You couldn't sleep, you thought about her 24/7, wondered what
she was doing, wondered if she was thinking about you too ?? Every morning you
went to school you promised yourself that you were going to tell her how you
felt about her, then you realized that you were too shy and scared, what if she
said NO ..? , so you said to yourself “I'm gonna wait a little longer, until
i'm sure”
Monday morning, you couldn't wait to get to school, one
weekend was long enough, and you missed her terribly. You wore your nicest
clothes, you combed you hair neatly and sprayed a little perfume. And you had
promised yourself that the time had come, and you were ready to tell her how
you felt.
You arrived at school, you saw her with her friends talking
and laughing in the aisle. And there, in that aisle when everything changed.
Out of nowhere a friend of your came to you and told you “do
you know that she has boyfriend now.....” that rhetorical question was like a,
lightning bolt through your heart, your knees stared to shake, you drowned in
your own cold sweat, you couldn't believe what you just heard,,, “how could
this happened, I was happy, I was gonna tell her...” you just ran into you
class, you wanted to yell, you wanted to cry, you wanted go home.
You spent the whole school hours sitting in your chair, you
were so sad and angry, you kept thinking,,,, “if I had told her how I felt
about her sooner, I wouldn't have been in this mess” … little did you know that
the news about her being in a relationship was only just the beginning, it was
just like a sad song started to play, you didn't realize that it was going to
be the start of many sleepless night and the first of many tears you were gonna
cry.......
School was no longer about her, was no longer about the puppy
love you once had, and surely it was not about learning. School turned into a
torture field, the crush or maybe love you had for her turned into hate, the
smile from her that used to make you happier than a monkey in a banana island
turned into a rusty knife stabbing your heart repeatedly.... you blamed her and
her boyfriend for your misery.... too young to realized that it was all your
fault, how was she supposed to know how you felt about her ??
My first crush, my first love, my first broken heart
*This is a story written by my facebook friend, Joushua Shandy S. I love this one, and I pretty sure you do ^^
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